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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
AHHHHHHHHH Current mood: aggravated
If I hear one more muthafucker call me a baby mama I am going to scream...... Damnt, I am married to the man. I am not a fucking baby mama, I am his damn wife. I wish people would get the damn point. This isn't just someone that I got pregnant by and we are shacking up (no offense to any one that did or does this) It just aggrevates me because I work damn hard trying to be a good wife and I get regated to the label of baby mama.
Men, realize that someone calling your the women you married, your baby mama, is offensive. I don't care how you slice that bull shit. I am not his baby mama, I am his wife. Understand that if he walks away from me, I GET HALF!!!!

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Thursday, June 29, 2006
Reflections, Love and Life Current mood: thoughtful
Today, I have been sitting here thinking about how next month my daughter will be one year old. You would think that I would be ecstatic and more than excited but for me it tends to be bittersweet. See for everyone that doesn't know, I had twins last year. My son died 8 days after birth and as it gets closer to the day they were born, I feel my heart breaking all over again. I miss him so much. But then I can' t help but still feel blessed. Because my daughter has overcome so much in this last year. She was only 1lb 9oz at birth and now she is babbling,crawling and doing the things that a full-term 11 month old would do. It's just such a weird feeling for my heart to feel so empty but on the exact same hand it is full. Full with love for my daughter but so empty from the loss of my son. But all I can do is keep pushing on.
Then, something else that I realize is that when it comes to love of the relationship kind, I am blessed. You see, God has brought somebody in to my life who gives me exactly what I need. You see he keeps me on my toes. I have realized that if I had someone who was too nice I would get bored. But Corey is anything but boring. He knows exactly what to do to keep me in line. You see because I know that I can be emotional, hard headed and very cranky. But it doesn't help that he is cranky too. I love this man. He doesn't have a piece of my heart, he owns my heart. I have never been in love like this before. It's that kind of love where even though he might be getting on my last nerve, I know that there isn't anyone else in the world for me. He is the kind of man that I would have wanted my son to grow up to be. He is the kind of man that I want my daughter to strive to be with when she gets older. I am happy and the thing that I love the most about it is that I don't have to pretend or fake with him. He just loves me for me.
As far as life in general, I realize that so many people don't realize the things that they have. It is so easy to dwell on what you don't have. So many people are oblivious to their blessings. Everyone isn't meant to be rich, famous, or skinny for that matter. We were all made differently. Instead of fighting it we should embrace it. Those differences is what makes living in this world so interesting. It gives color to the mundane existances that we would otherwise lead. It is these differences that make me unique. And you know what I wouldn't have it any other way.

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Late night thought Current mood: cynical
As I was sitting here reading somethings on this online forum that I am a member of I realize something that really bothers me.
Why is it that Blacks can only be one of two ways, condescending or oblivious?
See my issue here is that you get so many "Pro-black" people who know more about black history than others so they are supposedly so much better. To me it seems like they should be teaching but realizing that everyone doesn't have the same jaded view of the world that they do. I think people fail to realize that your experiences shape a large part of who you are. See my experiences with racism have been a very important part of my life, but see my mom taught me that ALL people are self-loathing so don't take it personal.
Then on the other side you have the blacks that want to act like racism doesn't exist anymore. THey want to believe that we are all equal and free and every thing is hunky dory. That is a crock of shit and most realistic people know that. Instead of being realistic they prefer to live in a world of rose colored glasses.
This really isn't everything that I am thinking but I just feel like I needed to get this off my chest.

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Friday, June 16, 2006
Celebrities Current mood: annoyed
What is wrong with us as a country? Why is it that we spend so much of our time talking about famous people and their personal lives.
This thought comes because I was reading something on a bulletin board I frequent and they were discussing how Angelina Jolie is a slut and how nice Jennifer Aniston is etc. I have one thing to say to people who judge their opinions on what they hear and see in the media.
THE MEDIA WANTS YOUR RATINGS AND THEY WILL TELL YOU ANYTHING TO GET IT.
Wake up people. Now, it does come across as if Britney Spears is a terrible mother but honestly I can say that if I had cameras in my face all the time, I can't say that people would think I was mother of the year sometimes. Anyone with kids know that things happen especially with children. Then compound that on the feelings that she is having. She has a 7 month old son another child on the way, and a husband that is pimping the hell out of her. Has anyone taken the time to consider that maybe she is feeling really bad about herself. Imagine if at your worst moments in life you had the media all in your face.
Then, I find it amazing that people can tell you all the different things that have happened with Brangelina and all the other celebrities but they have no idea what is going on in Iraq or about what new legislation the federal government let alone individual state government is trying to pass.
People need to realize that there are always 4 sides to a celebrity relationship. That is his story, her story, the media's story, and the Truth.

New to this....

Well I am new to blogging but I figure since I spend time on myspace blogging I might as well set my own blog here. I think I am going to transfer my blogs from Myspace here.