The One Drop Rule

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/One-drop_rule

I just wanted to know, when did this rule stop applying. Now everyone wants to say Barack Obama is bi-racial, *(Basically emplying that he is White too) but last time I checked, the One drop rule still applied. Lets give you some names for comparison purposes.

Halle Berry (Black until she won the Oscar)

Thurgood Marshall (Black)

Malcolm X (Black)

Lena Horne (Black)

Mariah Carey (White until she went Crazy then Black)

and I am sure there are more that I haven't thought of. If Barack Obama wasn't president and moved in to White Suburbia USA, would people think of him as bi-racial or would he be a black man with a black wife and black children?

God and Materialism

I am a reality TV junkie. Yes I like all the bullcrap that people do in an effort to extend the 15 mins of fame that they have received. One that I used to enjoy on a very basic level was Jon and Kate plus 8. Now if you have ever seen this show you know that it about a woman and man who had twins then sextuplets. Now since I have watched from the beginning, I seen them come from a humble family who were thanking God for their needs being met to a family that seems to thank God for the wants that they are getting at the expense of their childrens lives. Now I won't get in to the explotation thing because honestly that isn't what this is about. Its about a simple question.
Does God love them more since he gives them their needs and wants, or is it simply that they paid for it by giving up their privacy and their childrens privacy.
I tend to believe it is the latter. I don't believe that God is this being who just gives things to some and doesn't do for others. I have a hard time with people saying that Jesus "blessed" them with something material. He isn't some dictator who sits on high and gives to some and not to others. From my limited knowledge and understanding, the greatest gift that God gives us is choice and free will. We can create things for ourselves. Now some people choose to get things at the expense of their very core. They will sale their soul to meet what ever need they have at that moment. Now I am not talking about addiction per se. I am talking about the people who use God as a crutch and a status symbol. They spend all their time thanking God for the things they have without ever telling what they have truly given up in an effort to get this want.
Now I am not saying that people are not blessed. Shoot truth be told I am very blessed but not in the conventional way that most people associate with blessings. No, I don't have this wonderful car. I can't walk by myself, My bank is not full of money and my child is far from an angel but I am blessed. I have a healthy child. I have a husband who is good for me. I have my needs. Sure I have many wants but I want them not need them.
I struggle with the idea that God is all in to this whole materialistic attitude that we have especially here in the US. We think that the only way God can love you is by giving you bling, or some other type of money. I mean look at it, this whole wealth preaching is making people alot of cash. Just ask Creflo Dollar and Bill Winston. Now this isn't to say that they are wrong because in my limited knowledge I dont know but I believe that there is more to life that being "blessed" by God with a BMW and trips to exotic locales. I would rather think that this came either by hard work, or you paid for it in some way.

God and Materialism

I am a reality TV junkie. Yes I like all the bullcrap that people do in

an effort to extend the 15 mins of fame that they have received. One that

I used to enjoy on a very basic level was Jon and Kate plus 8. Now if you

have ever seen this show you know that it about a woman and man who had

twins then sextuplets. Now since I have watched from the beginning, I

seen them come from a humble family who were thanking God for their needs

being met to a family that seems to thank God for the wants that they are

getting at the expense of their childrens lives. Now I won't get in to

the explotation thing because honestly that isn't what this is about. Its

about a simple question.

Does God love them more since he gives them their needs and wants, or is

it simply that they paid for it by giving up their privacy and their

childrens privacy.

I tend to believe it is the latter. I don't believe that God is this

being who just gives things to some and doesn't do for others. I have a

hard time with people saying that Jesus "blessed" them with something

material. He isn't some dictator who sits on high and gives to some and

not to others. From my limited knowledge and understanding, the greatest

gift that God gives us is choice and free will. We can create things for

ourselves. Now some people choose to get things at the expense of their

very core. They will sale their soul to meet what ever need they have at

that moment. Now I am not talking about addiction per se. I am talking

about the people who use God as a crutch and a status symbol. They spend

all their time thanking God for the things they have without ever telling

what they have truly given up in an effort to get this want.

Now I am not saying that people are not blessed. Shoot truth be told I am

very blessed but not in the conventional way that most people associate

with blessings. No, I don't have this wonderful car. I can't walk by

myself, My bank is not full of money and my child is far from an angel

but I am blessed. I have a healthy child. I have a husband who is good

for me. I have my needs. Sure I have many wants but I want them not need

them.

I struggle with the idea that God is all in to this whole materialistic

attitude that we have especially here in the US. We think that the only

way God can love you is by giving you bling, or some other type of money.

I mean look at it, this whole wealth preaching is making people alot of

cash. Just ask Creflo Dollar and Bill Winston. Now this isn't to say that

they are wrong because in my limited knowledge I dont know but I believe

that there is more to life that being "blessed" by God with a BMW and

trips to exotic locales. I would rather think that this came either by

hard work, or you paid for it in some way.

The Hypocrisy is showing

America has some very hypocritical people. You claim that what Rev. Wright said was hate but was it really. Is it a far stretch to think that the US has used Blacks for testing? http://www.infoplease.com/ipa/A0762136.html And is it so wrong to say that you weren't proud of America at a moment. It is like a child, You love them but you are not always proud at there decisions. How is it hate when we still live in a country that still mistreats blacks because of a few idiots. The reality is we live in a time period where blacks, whites, hispanics etc are doing so many different things that are crazy to themselves and each other. Also, to say that America's chickens were coming home to roost isn't a crazy thought. When we bombed Kosovo, how many women, children and innocent people died for the greater good? That isn't to say that what the terrorists did was good but the reality is that they thought we were the enemy.
Then to judge Obama because of his pastor just further shows hypocrisy. How many people who are passing judgement have ever heard a WHOLE sermon? How many of you have listened to racist, sexist and obnoxious remarks from friends? If you are white, how many black jokes have you heard? Did you stop being their friend or did you continue to talk to them about things they were knowledgeable about? At the end of the day what Rev. Wright said may not have been politically correct and it may have been an emotional response to some of the travesties that has been brought against blacks in America but the reality is that people won't see that. In White America, you live with privilage. Now that is not to say that things are a walk in the park but it is significantly easier. Then why is it wrong to tell blacks to unite, especially when we live in a country that is still very much rude and obnoxious to blacks. It's okay that people have country clubs that turn their noses up at blacks, Its okay for people to hang nooses, Its okay to wave the confederate flag even though it is a blatant reference to slavery. Its funny because people talk about hate as they judge my husband because he is a black man, they assume that he is doing something illegal, he gets pulled over in certain neighborhoods because he looks like he doesn't belongs but Rev. Wright is the one filled with hate....Hmmm, I don't think so but in America where delusion rules I guess that is the backwards thinking we would rather promote.

Then to say that because his middle name is hussein and he is muslim is a reason not to vote for Obama is really just the icing on the stupidity cake. If you don't like his platform then don't vote for him. If you think he won't do a good job then don't vote for him but really look at the person. We live in a time period where we trust every thing we read on the internet, or hear on the news instead of spending anytime looking for ourselves and trusting that change can happen, we would rather continue in a downward spiral. We look for any reason not to like a person. But how can we expect anything different when this is the same thing we do to everyone. We judge, and mistreat each other without taking the time to get to know a person. Then as a society we have the audacity to get upset when people aren't perfect and don't have perfect friends. Well do You?

Weekly Baking

This week my sister is in town. SO I think that I am going to tackle quite a few baking projects, so here is the estimated list. I will come back and give you updates as I make the goodies.

1. Mint Chocolate Truffles
2. German Chocolate Cake
3. Strawberry Cheesecake.
4. Homemade Caramels

This is the short list. If anyone has any ideas about what I should bake then I will gladly try to make it.

Help ME

Okay, I am trying to convince Corey to take another family picture. I think the one on the side is nice looking. So I need everyones help in convincing him that we should take one.....

The Story of my childrens birth

I had the worst pregnancy ever. I was so scared all the time. Something in me knew that I was going to go in to pre mature labor though. The story of my babies birth starts when I went to the hospital because I wasn't feeling good. They hooked me up to the machine and realized that I was in active labor. Since the hospital I was at didn't have a NICU they rushed me by ambulance to a hospital that was 20 mins away. Upon arrival, I was placed on magnesium and they gave me a steroid shot. I was so scared; I didn't want my babies to come at 25 weeks. Luckily and unluckily, that time they were able to stop the contractions. In the hospital, the docs thought that my Pre-term labor was due to dehydration so they kept me from Sunday to Thursday. I went home with a zofran pump to control my never ending nausea. At home, I wasn't feeling much better but at least I wasn't puking my guts out. Then on Sunday July 24th 2005 I wasn't feeling my son moving as much. Then I called the hospital to ask if I should come in and they said you are fine. Later that evening, I felt this dropping sensation in my stomach. I made Corey rush me to the hospital. I sent him home and told my mom not to come because I would be fine. All night I was having contractions and pain. They gave me a pain pill so I was in and out but I kept begging for a doctor. They didn't come but I was so drugged up I didn't realize anything. The next morning, I awoke to doctors coming in telling me that they were going to do a c-section because I was still contracting. They checked my cervix and realized that my sons head was already ready to come out. They rushed me in to the operating room and put me under general anesthesia and CJ was born at 10:32 and Rachel made her appearance at 10:36am. My first feelings as a parent was a feeling of failure. I didn't know what to do. I just thought that maybe I did something to deserve this to happen. I have never felt such conflicting feelings in my life. I love my daughter and I don't want to dwell on the loss because the reality is that I am still blessed. I got 8 days with my beautiful son and I have a beautiful daughter. So in honor of my son's memory and my daughters life from the NICu to now here is a slideshow of Miss Rachel.

Random Posts for the day

Right before Thanksgiving, I took the time to tell a few people how much things that they had done for me made me appreciative of them. So many people helped me before Corey came along and I am so greteful for it. Now that isn't to say that people don't help now. It's just to say that my husband is very hell bent on taking care of me and our family. Its just been a rough time the last week or so. Disability has taken its toll on my emotionally. Now I am not completely jacked up. I can still walk around some but it is just so hard to not be able to run and chase after my very crazy child. I know that without Corey, my mom, bro and sis things would be so much harder. Just trying to be appreciative today because it has been a hard last few days for me. Just trying to keep all my blessings in the front of my mind and the my perceived shortcomings in the back of my mind. I am at a point in my life where I am trying to right any wrongs, and trying to make sure that the people that I have had in my life know that they presence was appreciated and i am grateful for them.

Why is it that every person can look back at a relationship and see how terrible a person was for them but they couldn't see it when they were with them. Relationships are fickle things. Remembering back, I can see just how much of an idiot I was. I allowed someone who meant me no good to control my life. That is my fault though. People need to realize that you teach people how to treat you. So I taught people that I was not important. During this holiday season, it is a good time to let people who don't mean you well go.

Rantings of the day

I normally censor myself here. See that is because I tend to be opinionated, and harsh to some people. Now I have been thinking. There is so much more to me than trying to appease the masses. Honestly, I don't give two shits about the masses. So from now on, this is going to be real talk.

So to start off, While I love my daughter to pieces, I am so over being a parent today. I think Rachel realizes it though because she is behaving pretty well. I know, I know, there is going to be a million overzealous parents beating down my door talking about "How could you feel that way. Children are a blessing....blah blah blah" to all those people I will tell you from jump, Kiss My Ass. Parenting is such a full time job. So I love my daughter, anyone that knows me know she is the world to me. Then now I am contemplating whether I want Rachel to believe in Santa. First all the santa stuff I see is a fat white man. Why can't Santa look like her. Now I do realize that they have started creating stuff with black santa but honestly how the hell do you explain that. Do you tell your child that black santa goes to the black kids house and white santa goes to the the white kids houses and asian santa goes to the asian childrens houses. That becomes more lies to tell more crap to create. Now I recognize to some that maybe they think I am overthinking but if my daughter is anything like my niece then there are very real questions that will come up. Then I argue with myself about the purpose of Santa and the purpose of lying to my daughter. How is lying to her going to promote selfless giving? Wouldn't it be more beneficial to show her how to give things away without expecting anything in return?

Then another thing that bothers me about Christmas is the way that people place so much value on to the amount of crap they buy their children. Ever since Rachel was born we have had a really simple thing about gifts. Rachel does not get a lot of stuff. Every Christmas she gets Pajamas because that is a tradition that Corey carries on from when he was younger. They we normally get 1 to 2 toys. Rachel doesn't get a lot of toys at all. Actually, all the toy recalls that have occured during the last few months didn't affect us at all. Then I also get her stuff from the second hand store. I don't remotely feel guilty about it either. Another thing we instituted is that before Christmas every year we go through all of Rachel's toys and give some away to make room for the new toys. My friend Denise gave me that idea. So who needs Santa when I am showing my child selfless giving in real life.

So anyway outside of my christmas rant, I am just having a blah day. I am tired of being in Memphis. I hate this place. I can think of about five other places I would rather be with hell being very close to being on the list. Well I probably should get back to my homework. School sucks.....